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"3 A​.​M​.​" EP

by Casey Ruff

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1.
How are you doing today? They don't ask me They don't ask me How is ol' What's Her Name? They don't ask me They don't ask me Sometimes people know Even though Even though they don't Sometimes people can tell Even though Even though you won't How are you without me? I'm not asking I'm not asking 'Cause the answer hasn't changed I'm not asking I'm not asking 'Cause I see the apology In your eyes When you see the hope in mine The Hope in mine Sometimes people Know Even though they don't Sometimes people can tell Even if you won't
2.
Drunks pay my bills Alcoholics pay the rent I don't work here just for the money I work here to earn back Some of that self respect That I'll spend when I ain't working I live on the table scraps Of joy and of romance From the hands of my masters And I still take the rest The sorrow the sadness I chew the fat that doesn't matter Save a drink for The Bartender The greatest friend you've ever had 'Cause they may need that drink worse than you Soon as this night's through I ride my cigarette buzz Hold tight to my topped off coffee cup This is a sport with performance enhancements I watch the room fill up Spin around and fall down As I walk through people dancing And I love the closing up When the lights are low down And I'm alone with the glow and the echo They say it's a young man's business That bitch is such a cruel mistress She loves everyone but she's coming home with me. Save a drink for The Bartender The loneliest person in the room 'Cause they may need that drink worse than you Soon as this night's through And don't say to me your glass is half empty 'Cause from over here- it looks half full And don't get in the habit of leaving things unfinished Take it from somebody that would know Save a drink for The Bartender Your greatest friend and enemy 'Cause they may need that drink worse than you
3.
"Monster" 04:14
So you think I shoot to kill Like some kind of Wild Bill That's an awful hard pill to swallow I don't think I follow you 'Cause I feel I'm as bland as sand I'm slow and short like the hour hand In need of reprimanding For standing too still I wish that I was a Monster With your pity and your fear It'd be clear to me As you're running away Where it is I stand You're always right here You're picture perfect and you're crystal clear There's no need for escaping There's no need for you to do it As I feel bad for the vampires And I admire the werewolves to But it's no use- I'm not a monster Just a guy in a suit I wish that I was a Monster With your pity and your fear It'd be clear to me As you're running away Where it is I stand
4.
And I wonder why I don't Just leave, leave myself alone As I wander to and fro Searching, searching for the source of my hurting In the Deep Beneath the Blue Up in their glass bottom boats, floating As I watch from below As they rock and as they roll They're so noisy But all I hear is the hum and the drum and Nothing And it's Something that I've been searching for Not paramours going overboard They're so proud but they would drown Beneath the Blue And now I'm a Deep Sea Diver, that's for certain It takes me longer to get done hurting The heart that's larger takes longer to heal. As I walk along the floor Through the shipwrecks from storms Forgotten or ignored I remember treasures, Old bottles full of letters, And skeletons still clutching their swords Oh, the memories in The Deep Beneath the Blue All the bottles full of letters That'd be better off Never written at all The bottles rain down They catch the light just right And they look like stars falling through the night And I'm reminded I once believed Believed in our love Our love was a dream A dream I'll wake up from Another wish has come to live Beneath the Blue And now I'm a Deep Sea Diver, that's for certain It takes me longer to get done hurting The heart that's larger takes longer to heal.
5.
"Naturally" 03:30
I adore you Baby, can't you see Yet I'll ignore you Should we fall short of fantasy It ain't easy but that's how it goes I am not the man I hoped I would be Do I owe an apology to you For doing what comes Naturally? Maybe, baby, that is just how love goes? It's not supposed to be an easy road. It's an answer that I can't question, And a lesson that's ongoing. Do me a favor: Hear my story, then don't worry. Beautiful lady- you gotta be suitably crazy to be with me. It ain't easy but that's how it goes I am not the man I hoped I would be Do I owe an apology to you For doing what comes Naturally?

about

This album is dedicated to the soul of the small hours. I'm grateful to have had the witching hours as a friend whose door is always open.

I've had the privilege to work with Colin "Hollywood" J Nelson for a good many years, and over that time we'd bandied about the idea of recordings that sound like the space and time that happens at 3AM (and often we were having those discussions at 3AM). Like many good ideas, they can only be revisited in the time of happenstance in which they're conceived, so the attempt of clean living dictated that the conversation was protracted over a longer time than most.

Speaking of happenstance, these renditions wouldn't have been possible if my travel pouch hadn't been stolen out of a bus on the way between Hampi and Hosapete across India. That travel pouch had my guitar picks inside, and it was hanging right above my snoozing face in the bus bunk that I was laying in. Without the guitar picks, I was then forced to start learning my "clawed" finger-picking style on the travel guitar I'd brought along the journey with me. If Necessity is the Mother of Invention, then she's a single mom and works waaay too hard.

These recordings weren't initially intended for public consumption, either. I regarded them as "Old Man Ruff's Private Vintage" that I kept in the cellar, and would every once in a while pay a visit, take a nip from, and leave again. The subject matter and starkness of the recordings were deemed too raw for my ears of years ago, but now I'm grateful to them for having a time capsule quality and for being foundational of my writing style moving forward.

Thanks to all the active listeners that've contributed insights and encouragement over the years. They spurred this release farther than I would've on my own and they're the best friends a song can have:

Sandy J Buchner
Liam Fitzgerald
Patrick Gibbs
Amy Jo-Jo-Lina Kennedy
Catlain Kinsey
"Hollywood" Nelson
Ricky Gene Powell
Sam Russell
Shadrach Scott

And to everyone else for their small kindnesses in regards to my songs and general artistic bent- those kindnesses certainly add up. Thank you very much.

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released May 1, 2020

Recorded at Her Car Studios by Colin J Nelson
www.facebook.com/hercarstudio/

Masterfully Mastered by Ed Brooks at Resonant Mastering
www.resonantmastering.com

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Casey Ruff Seattle, Washington

A singer/songwriter living in Seattle, WA. He's originally from Custer, MT. Known by migrant beet laborers as "El Dragón de las Altas Llanuras". Former high school mascot. Future nihilist. Acting Vice President of the M. Bellucci Fan Club. Sounds like AmeriContra, Gravelvet, and Frontier Orchestral ... more

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